“Grace and peace to you in the name of Jesus Christ. I am Esther from Malawi. I would like to give a testimony before the year 2025 ends. To begin with, I would like to thank God for His great mercies and grace He has shown me this year. Last year, I was so down due to the circumstances I was in. Fast forward to January this year, I remember asking God to only let His will prevail – not mine but His. However, things didn’t change instantly. I kept praying and, most of the time, I failed God. I am glad He didn’t give up on me. It reached a point where there was a day I sat on my bed and a song sung by Victoria Orenze came to my heart, emphasising the verse where she sang that, ‘God won’t give up on you.’ There was a part she sang that even though you’re tired with yourself, He won’t get tired with you. It deeply touched my heart, because at that point I had nothing to do. I was feeling worthless and useless. I gave up on myself, but God kept pulling me and giving me strength to pray, fast and hold fast to Him. He saw me through it.
“Fast forward to June 7, I was invited to join an Interactive Prayer Service with Brother Chris. We prayed that God should position us where He wanted us to be. At that time, I had applied for a master’s degree and for a job. I remember asking God in my heart that, ‘Lord, at least help me to just get even an internship and to be enrolled in a prestigious university.’ Fast forward to July, I received my offer letter to do an internship and I also received my admission letter to do my master’s. I was so happy, I couldn’t believe it. When all hope was gone, God saw me through. Even though some problems were self-inflicted, He still helped me to get through them. This just proved to me how faithful God is to us, and that His love is unconditional. He doesn’t love us because we are righteous or that we do good, but because He chose to love me. This taught me that the good things I do, I should do them with a heart and an intention to give glory to God. And not that if I do good then God will love me. Just as it is stated in Psalm 130:1–2 and Psalm 107:10–16, it clearly highlights the multitude of His grace He has shown me. Besides all I have gone through and the mistakes I have made, He still showed me grace and delivered me. He didn’t count my iniquities to deliver me, for if He did, I could not have been here.
“I pray that may God extend His grace to those who are still in darkness. Those who once walked with Him but, due to life circumstances, they wandered away from Him and don’t know how to get back. Those who have lost hope. Those who have given up on themselves. Those who don’t know at all how to get to Him. Those who don’t know that they have wandered away from Him. Those who are afraid of returning. Those who have a hard time seeing His goodness. Those who feel unworthy. Those whose hearts are stubborn and don’t want to change. May God see them all!”